What I’ve been learning this year in small doses is this:
Maybe the world really starts to change when I start to pray for my heart rather than my situation. Maybe it starts to change when I pray for my humility more than my impact. When I pray for joyful obedience rather than success. When I pray for patience instead of productivity and love instead of appreciation.
Maybe this world starts to change when I pray for His closeness more than healing. For trust instead of answers. For surrender instead of security. Maybe it starts to change when I ask for presence more than protection from difficulty.
God sees the heart and He can change the heart and He can change the world through humble, obedient, trusting, loving, and surrendered hearts. Maybe it really is that simple? Just a daily asking, receiving, repenting (a whole lot), and repeating.
Writing it is the easy part. Living it out is the hard part and the very best part.
Being convicted right now in 1) selfishness with my time, 2) unseen service, 3) love, and 3) surrender especially. I need to be asking God for more of that.
Also, my appointment went well! It was better news prognosis-wise (I won’t die and I don’t need ablation yet), and a little worse news in that there’s also a systemic component. But my heart was calm and happy all day. The whole time in the waiting room! The whole time making faces in the mirror while I waited on the table and hummed Lion King. 🙂 Gratitude did literally reset it last night, too. I had a good day in terms of heart rate.