In the Night

Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory…
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever

I posted it yesterday on Facebook, drawn to the verses about how my heart and flesh may fail, but that God is the strength of my heart and portion forever. And tonight, I repeated it in my bed as I consider the actual events. My blood starved brain with atria going haywire and yeah, sometimes it’s best not to know much about the body. And I said it over and over. “My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”

But I can’t sleep with each skipped beat and I wish there was some sort of whispered reassurance. Parents are half-way across the country. So you just have this overwhelming urge to listen to psalms on YouTube, and you remember this woman named Jess Ray who sings them beautifully. You search, and she has 3. The third one? Psalm 73. You had never listened to it before. And it’s like a hug from God, that it would be right there reminding you. “Yet I am always with you. You hold me by my right hand…You are always with me and you will take me to glory, take me to glory. I am always with you and it is good to be near you, good to be with you.”

I’ll be listening to it on repeat tonight.

 

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